Argh. The past two weeks have been a daily struggle. I know I can run two and a half miles non-stop without a problem, I’ve done it…but then there are days like today where I can’t even run a full mile. I made it about a half a mile in agony with my right shin. My left shin and right hip also hurt, but not enough to stop me had they been the only pain. In fact the latter two areas probably would have felt better if I had been able to continue an actual jog.
My eating the past couple weeks has been horrid. Worse than normal – fast food, pizza, cream sauces, way too much cheese. Drinking beer and soda with very little water.
Mentally I’ve been absolutely wiped out. Stuff that is indirectly related to work is really eating at me (TSA related). I have not been sleeping well and am exhausted. Moo’s behavior at her group training lessons has been erratic at best which has me worried. And Sadie has suddenly taken to wanting to sleep with me – while that is sweet, it also has me worried because it is so out of character for her. And I got a sneak peek at the work schedule for the first quarter of 2011…I have very little locally and am going to have to travel. A lot. Which then feeds back into the TSA stuff that has me not sleeping.
Right now I want to curl up into a little ball, buried under my blankets and hide. Or rather, a big ball. I weighed in this morning, but I refuse to post it.
I know eventually I’ll get over this hump and things will start progressing again, but at the moment, it feels like things in the running department will be terrible forever. I’ve already registered for the half marathon and made the hotel reservation for March, so there is no backing out. But the way I feel today, I am not even sure I could walk the race, let alone run any of it.
I hate feeling so whiny, but I must admit it feels good to vent some of it here. I appreciate anyone who has read this whole thing and is still following along with me!
In fun news – we got a Kinect to hook up to the Xbox. Along with it, I purchased the Your Shape: Fitness Evolved “game”. I’ve heard good reviews from several people I know (or who Neil knows) about it. So, we’ll see. My plan is to mess around with it on my non-running days. This afternoon I need to get it set up – I am sure I’ll be sharing how that goes!
Right now I am off to sit through a conference call, do some administrative work, and then try my run again.